IDK what happened, but my comment never showed up. So what did Brandon do?

kclove on 8/8/2010 1:16:06 PM

Hey, sorry for not responding, I haven't been on here in a while. Thanks for the encouragement. I know how much prayer helps, and between you and the prayer of myself and others, my horse is doing amazing. I won't go into boring detail, but basically, things are looking up. And the 4H fair went really well too (I didn't take my horse; I took my mom's). And my fibromyalgia has been doing better. The whole Spencer thing? I just don't know. If I let myself, I would fall uncontrallably for him or any of my past crushes, or even this other guy...
This might sound stupid, but there's this guy at my school named Colten. He isn't the most attractive guy in the whole world, but everyone loves him because he has the world's cutest and sweetest personality. He never says a bad word about anybody to anybody. So a lot of girls like him. He's very popular, and for good reasons. But anyway, on the last day of school, I bought a pop on my way out. He wanted a sip of it so I let him and said "you owe me one". Maybe this is ridiculous, but IDK, something hit me right then and there, like hey, here is a really popular guy and he doesn't act like its gross to drink from the same glass as somebody whos "average". And I thought how easily I could like him, but I don't let myself because hes got a million other prettier, better girls that me to choose from.
The point? IDK. I'm at this point where I think the first guy I see, might it be Corey or Spencer or Colten or Jared, I might just not be able to hold back my emotions anymore. I just don't know. I'm really confused.

kclove on 7/30/2010 5:14:53 PM

Well, that's better than DEFINETLY liking him.
With your "BF" you deserve better as in how? Just wondering...
BTW, your poem is REALLY good! I was never any good at poetry; I do want to be an author, but of chapter books. If you don't mind me asking, did the poem come from your feelings for Meketa????
I feel like I'm being super nosy and asking too many personal questions, so sorry. If it offends you, don't bother to answer them.
Well, I'm off to run on the DREADMILL. 10 minutes at 6 miles an hour and an incline of 2. Ugg. With my fibromyalgia its been SUPER hard lately....I stopped and took a break like 4 TIMES yesterday.
Things ARE NOT going well with the horses. My horse (Kansas City, KC for short-it explains my username) has been in therapy for a torn ligament the past 2 months. So we're SUPPOSED to be riding him now, but he's gone downhill again. Things have been going so bad that my mom's like "maybe you should do something else" but I said "there's nothing else I want to do" She's the same way as I am, totally hooked on the horses. I mean, I LOVE drama and singing but you have to be pretty commited to do it year round. I just don't have that kind of passion to put in that effort all year round like I do with the horses. Everyone has their thing, and I've found mine. I just wish it would turn around. I can't seem to lose any weight (its been like 3 months that I've been super serious about running and eating good), my horse is lame (as in limping), AND Spencer has a girlfriend. If one of those things would just turn around, I'd be so much happier. I feel like I cry all the time. My mom said fibroymalgia can cause depression, but she doesn't want to put me on the medication because it has "bad side effects". I mean, don't get me wrong, its not like I lay in bed and ball all day and never have fun. I do stuff and I have fun, but when I start crying I just get upset about everything. The horse not being able to go to the 4H fair triggers it and I just can't stand it anymore for that half hour or whatever. My mom says she's getting sick of "picking me back up" but what am I supposed to do? Sigh...

kclove on 7/8/2010 5:33:29 PM

That's cool he and Spencer should do a duet sometime. They'd sound (and look..I'm guessing Meketa's somewhat attractive???) so pretty

I'm going to the lake all weekend and Cedar Point on the 4th (the water park-I HATE HATE HATE rollercoasters-I'm a wimp and I'm not afraid to admit it).

*sigh* Summer's passing by SOOO fast!!! I really do not like school (well except for language arts and choir) and I'm not anxious to go back. But I can't think about that right now, or it'll ruin what's left of summer. I still have the 4H fair coming up (sadly enough the 4H fair is actually the highlight of my summer!). Though I'm kind of stressed about that right now. We have to decorate our horse's stalls, and our club had chosen to do Disney as our theme (I was going to do Up...tape a bunch of balloons to the stall and make a cardboard house) but apparently we're not allowed to because "we could get sued". So they switched at the last minute to the Wizard of Oz (couldn't we get sued for that too???) and I'm going to do that part with the hot air balloon only my hot air balloon will be made out of lots of little ballons! ;)

Maybe this is desperate and ridiculous of me, but I keep hoping I'll run into Spencer somewhere. I really want to talk to him...

kclove on 7/2/2010 10:11:52 AM

Wow, he definetly likes you! And do you like him...??? You might want to find out, this could turn into something, but only if you want it too...

kclove on 6/24/2010 10:22:50 AM

I don't want to break them up..that would be cold hearted, because if he was my BF I wouldn't want some loser girl to do that to me. I just want to be his friend, start a relationship that can be built on better, and figure out if he really is as great as he seems to be. Plus, if he never likes me, at least I'll have a new friend.
Good idea, reminding him that his ex cheated on him. He needs to move on. She's not worth his time anyways.
BTW, I'm not sure how Spencer's girlfriend treats him, I don't really know her. All I know is shes really pretty and I have friends that know her and tell me she's nice. But, almost everyone in my grade thinks he's gay (which he most certainly isn't, he's just joking around!) so besides her I think I'm probably the only one who likes him, so I might have a chance. But I can't do anything when he's taken, so I'll just wait it out and see.

kclove on 6/14/2010 6:05:43 PM

Well sounds like you had fun after all. So Meketa's dad likes your mom??? Is your mom married?? I'm sure since you kind of like Meketa that would be REALLY awkward...

kclove on 6/8/2010 4:41:43 PM

I luv the clique!!!!! It's so great. Ehmagod , I also love the color purple. I like blue better though. But it's a close second. Plus, I luv lipgloss.

Flgirl97 on 6/7/2010 8:10:17 PM

Yeah agreed.
4 more days left, and I can barely even wait! Are you doing anything for Memorial Day weekend?

kclove on 5/28/2010 8:53:13 PM

Luckily summer break is coming up, so I'll be able to forget about him altogether. Maybe next year we won't have any classes together, and I won't see him that much. IDK what I want anymore. I'm not sure if I just want to be his friend, or if I really do want to be his girlfriend, or if I just think he's super cute and nice. I REALLY wish I wouldn't start liking this taken guy in my class, but he's soooooooooo hot its like irrestible. Like I said, summer is coming around, and maybe next year something will happen with Corey or the other guy I like or someone compelety different. IDK. All I know is that I need a break from crushes anyhow. I'm kinda of burnt out over this whole Corey thing.

kclove on 5/22/2010 9:54:36 AM

dat sounds really funny!

stylegirly on 5/18/2010 2:59:00 PM

Because not everything of Youtube is good...my mom gets on it sometimes and sees the bad stuff. Plus shes super strict about I guess you could call it "media safety".
Well Corey asked out another girl as friends to the dance. I was so upset about it too. I mean, WHY didn't he think of that with ME? I said I wasn't going with anybody either. When I was running on the treadmill yesterday I just got so mad about it. I put so much effort into my workout, it was crazy. I guess I wasn't really sad, just angry. Then I watched the Teardrops on My Guitar music video and got kind of depressed about it. But I'm thinking about him less, so I think I might be getting over him.
It's great your getting over Shaun. Hopefully that'll happen with me and Corey. I'm kind of starting to like this other guy in my class a little, but he has a girlfriend. Though he was like super depressed during choir the other day (he's usually super upbeat) so I think he was in a fight with her. IDK why, its just exactly what it seemed like. He wasn't telling anyone what was up either, and him having a fight with his girlfriend would be kind of a private thing he would keep to himself. But I'd rather not like him either, considering hes taken. Actually all the good guys in my class are taken, so maybe I won't crush on anyone at all. That would be the best thing, but its going to make it harder to get over Corey if theres nobody else to focus on.

kclove on 5/16/2010 8:20:12 PM

wow! well sorry I haven't been on forever!! OMG I CAN"T believe he was making out with another girl.. but its a good thing ur over him! Just dont give in if he's trying to win you back! Does shaun like you back?

pigglyWiggly14 on 5/15/2010 5:44:47 PM

ya, and i couldn't find them on youtube, so ya....

stylegirly on 5/14/2010 4:05:25 PM

datz kool, r the guys who played gaston and the beast cute? lol. im having major feelings bout my crush now... .....he's starting to talk to mi more, and less to da girl he said he liked, which is good for me, but idk, and sum points, i feel like i just dnt like him, and other times, i feel like he would b da best crush evr....so idk....

stylegirly on 5/13/2010 6:11:53 PM

Haha, I probably make him sound really weird online but if you knew him he's cool, trust me. I'd check out the youtube thing but I'm not really supposed to get on youtube, so yeah. Speaking of truth or dare, one time I made the neighbor kid drink this cup with all this DISGUSTING stuff in it; it was like salt, pepper, BBQ sauce, ketchup, mustard. My brother and I did it. Basically what we did was fill the cup up with water and then put anything and everything in our fridge into it. He only had to drink 3 sips but he almost puked.
Okay I had this conversation with Corey today.
Corey: I'm depressed.
Me: Why?
Corey: I have nobody to go to the dance with.
Me: Do you have somebody in mind?
Corey: Not really. Some people wanted me to go w/ Camille-side note: she's my friend who he dated before.
Me: Oh well I don't think she likes you. Do you like her?
Corey: No.
Me: I don't believe you.
So all in all he DOES want a girlfriend, but he doesn't know who, which is kind of weird. UNLESS he wanted me to ask him out then, but IDK, I just don't know. He's so sweet; we're rollerskating in gym and I SUCK at it (I think I'll win People's Most Unathletic Person of the Year Award-that's not a real award I just made it up LOL) and he's like "Do you need help?" And I said yes and he tried to teach me but it didn't really work.
The theater thing sounds super cool! We only have 2 productions each year: a play and a musical. Our high school has like one each month though, its pretty crazy.

kclove on 5/12/2010 4:58:49 PM

ya...i hope i can get to dat.., so how r u and ur crush?

stylegirly on 5/12/2010 1:49:59 PM

Ugg-I HATE guys like that! I actually know a girl whose like that. She doesn't date every week but she'll say get together with somebody and say she really likes them and everything and then breaks up with them the next week! It's crazy!
Well its probably a better thing you don't have classes together, that way you'll be able to get over him easier. That's what happened with my crush from last year this year-I only had 3 classes with him, whereas last year I had EVERY class with him, so I just don't see him that much. He was like my BGF last year (he was about every girls BGF last year-he's just a really awesome guy, and cute too) but now I barely even talk to him. See, 3 middle schools consolidated and so now there's different people in our classes, and he's gotten more popular. But he's still totally nice, not a jerk like most preppy guys.
Yeah, I agree with you with the whole "its most important we're friends" thing. I mean, you like a guy for the same reasons you like a friend-because they're just a great person.
Ha thats funny with the truth or dare thing-you wouldn't believe some of the dares WE made up. I'm telling you, some of them were really disgusting. Corey turned somebody into a prostitue, because he paid her like $5 to crawl over Justin (a really short kid in our class-he's adorable, but like a first grader). I think he was kidding, but she actually did it. I don't think he ever paid her though. So I guess all is well there.

kclove on 5/11/2010 4:53:40 PM

Wow! So do you like the guy who plays Gaston or the Beast? Or not really? And its cool that you and Shaun are friends now. Because really thats the first step, and it might eventually lead to something more.
IDK if I've said this before, but I'm in drama too. Corey says he's getting involved in it next year, which is great, because in our plays we don't have that many people and you really get close to the people you work with, even if you've never met them before. Oh and we were playing Truth or Dare in gym one time (we are doing archery so we were waiting to shoot in line) and Corey got dared to massage my shoulder. It was pretty random and really awkward but funny. I also asked him if he likes this girl I thought he liked (when we were playing Truth or Dare) and he said no, so that made me pretty happy. Also when I ask him who he likes he says "nobody" and if it was me I doubt he'd say that it was me. I would believe it really is nobody but he kind of laughs when he says it, so I don't really believe him.

kclove on 5/10/2010 8:39:57 AM

awesome profile!

jazzdancer on 5/8/2010 10:46:16 PM

Hey sorry I haven't responded for such a long time! I thought I had but I guess I didn't because its not on here, or maybe it just didn't show up? IDK Anyway so for Easter I went to my grandparents house. So when does your summer break start? Ours is June 4th. So excited but I'm going to miss Corey. LOL

kclove on 5/8/2010 7:11:16 PM

OMG im so proud of u! it sounds like u had so much fun! Im so happy dat u and ur crush r starting to b friends! I'm not having such a great time as u r, I want to stop liking my crush, but itz really hard. We r friends, but i no he already likes someone, and it just makes me sad. but, im not thinking about him as much anymore, which means im getting bettr.

stylegirly on 4/25/2010 1:38:14 PM

dat'z true! Thxs for da tip!

stylegirly on 4/19/2010 4:47:10 PM

datz a good tip! I really wish i could just get ovr my old crush, but i still really like him! I hope u have a easier time than me, my feelings r all ovr da place !

stylegirly on 4/14/2010 4:41:58 PM

OMG IM SO PROUD OF U! i mean, dat stinks dat he doesn't like u, but seriously, i would NEVER have da confidence to talk to my crush and say dat i liked him. bet dat jacket will attract cute guys who will soon b ur crush! Lately, ive been having feelings for my old crush, and i can't stop liking him, even though i know he already likes someone else. I mean, he's my friend and all, we like to annoy each sometimes, but I wish i could just move on, BUT I CAN"T cuz my stupid feelings for him keep coming back. sigh.

stylegirly on 4/13/2010 2:58:14 PM