Hey girl,

I'm really sorry to hear that you're having such a hard time with your family and at school. A lot of people hide their real feelings beneath a smile—and you sound like one of them.

I think one of the best things you can do for yourself is to find someone to talk to, even if it's just a friend you can vent to when frustrating things come up. Also, you might really have depression, but regardless, you’ve got a lot to deal with, so you should ask your grandma or another adult to help you get help. Seeing a therapist or a school counselor could give you a safe place to share your feelings. Depression can be a really serious problem and shouldn’t be left alone.

If all your friends are at your old school, try making friends at your new school. I know that can feel overwhelming if you're not very happy in the first place, but you could start small by joining a student group at school or asking some kids you know from class if they want to study with you. 

xoxo,

Alissa