I can't stop thinking about wanting to cut and committing suicide. Last year I was a cutter and I tried to commit suicide and I regret it still, but a part of me wishes I could do it again, except this time, I wouldn't get caught. I really thought I was over this but apparently not, and I don't want to tell my mom or a counselor. I need some advice on what to do.
This is a very serious matter, but it’s great that you’re trying to seek help. Realizing that hurting yourself is not the right move is huge, so props on knowing that you need to find another way to deal with what’s going on.
This is something that is much larger than you, and you can’t take it on all on your own. You need to tell someone you trust. And trust that they will not judge you but will help you in a way in which you will feel comfortable. This could be your mother or father or a teacher or counselor. But you need to tell someone.
This is not something you just get over yourself. Talking to someone will help you understand why you have these feelings and then you can go from there. It is a step in the right direction that you wrote for help, but talking to your mom or a counselor will make a huge difference, I promise.
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