MOD!! i have MAJOR...affection issues! i have big personal space problems and i HATE it when people touch me. Everytime my BF comes up and tries to hold my hand or hug me i tense up BIGTIME and im afraid im making him feel like i dont like him and i DO ALOT!! HELP!!!!!!!

MOD MOD: i dont need him on occasion infact ive needed him alot lately...he WAS my security blanket. ive ben goin through alot of rough things lately with at home and wen i talk to him its like im actually talkin to so mebody who cares, whos not just there to kno my business or say im sorry over and over. he gave me a leg to stand on but wen he moved away and didnt talk to me i litteraly shut down to some ppl and than i got ot where id hide it bc it was annoyin but he was like my other half( we never dated but part of me wishes we would). we grew up togther and it just hurt soo bad. he added on to the trouble. advice? 2)the one im rlly close to makes me worry alot. i want better for him than that and i told him that but i didnt get much of a reply. i hate it tha he does things like that but im not sure what to do besides tell him how i feel and its not always easy wen its somebody who doesnt want to listen but tries bc were good friends.. anyway i could get him to see it like i do??